I wanted to join the Ultimate Blog Party 2013 on this blog too! I think it's so much fun and I love getting to know the new people who are stopping by. So if you've already been by My So-Called Chaos and read my post there-welcome again to my UBP2013. I'll try and be a little different here!
I'm Miss Angie. The blogger and brain behind both Health NOT to Health NUT and My So-Called Chaos. I also have my shop Chaotic Creations by My So-Called Chaos, and the swap blog I co-manage with Beth called Chaotic Goddess Swaps.
I have always been a big girl. Since I was about 8 years old... My mother is large, my sister is large (but she's doing pretty well at losing weight!), my grandmothers are heftier... It's just what I've known. I dealt with being the fat kid, the fat teenager, and not knowing how to dress for my body. High school was usually baggy jeans, a baggy t-shirt, and an oversized sweater that was my "comfort" as I felt it hid everything I didn't want to show off. I had great friends-but I never put myself out there enough to do any dating-I let my weight hold me back.
Left: Me in 2006. I had lost 30lbs at that point. Right: Christmas 2007 with Miss Melanie Grace.
But I grew up, I finally started dating and learned how to dress better for my body type. I learned not to let my weight hold me back as much, even though every time I go out to do something new it's the first thought that runs through my mind still... Mostly though, I push it back and push myself forward. If I let my weight hold me back after all of this time every single time (I'll admit, sometimes I still do) I'd never do anything at all.
I'm on the far right, this was October 2011.
So in May of 2011 I started this blog as a secondary blog, with the intention of making a lifestyle change in 21 days that would set me on the path for eventual fitness and good health. It's now 2 years later and I'm still at square one. I've started and failed so many times, more than I can even count, but I keep on keeping on. I hate that I'm still big. I hate that I've always been big and never had the follow through to make it all the way to thin. But I'm slowly learning not to hate myself. I'm slowly learning not to delete the pictures I cringe at-because it's who I am now. It wont always be who I am, but I can't hate myself along the way or the progress will never happen.
With my favorite Singer, Eric Himan, last Wednesday 4/3/13.
Two weeks ago Kristina and I joined Weight Watchers online. So far I have lost 5.6lbs in the first two weeks. It's hard not to get discouraged when the first week was 5lbs and this week (weighed in this morning) was only .6lb, but a loss is a loss and I'm going to keep going. So far WW has been super easy for me to follow, and I just need to work on adding in the exercise that I really need to push myself forward. I can do this. Thanks to the support I have from my friends and family-and from all of you in blog world-I can do this.
If you're stopping by from UBP13, or you're just a new reader here-leave me a comment! I want to get to know you too! Are you on this fitness journey with me? Are you doing Weight Watchers? Did you just stop by? Who are you? Where do you blog? I want to know! :)